I hate being a mom and I'm ashamed

I Hate Being a Mom: The Dark Side of Parenting

Motherhood, frequently depicted as a mixed bag of love, sacrifice, and boundless happiness, is a path many women tread with hopes and dreams. Throughout history, society, literature, and media have extolled the virtues of the maternal instinct, elevating it as the pinnacle of a woman’s essence and satisfaction. Yet, hidden beneath this glowing portrayal, there’s an unspoken truth that resonates with the silent confession. “I hate being a mom.” It’s a truth rooted in feelings of regret, bitterness, shame, and the daunting burden of a role that, at times, feels more confining than liberating.

It’s also a topic that’s shrouded in taboo. To admit to feeling trapped or regretful about becoming a mother is to risk being labeled as ungrateful, unnatural, or even heartless. But by not addressing this elephant in the room, we are doing a disservice to countless women suffocating under the weight of societal expectations and their own conflicting emotions. Full disclosure: I’m not a mom. I never wanted to be a mom, and I’m grateful that even now, when many of my friends are welcoming grandchildren, I can still say without a shred of doubt, that I made the right choice for me. My intent here is simply to shed light on this often overlooked aspect of motherhood, offering a safe space for reflection, understanding, and, most importantly, acceptance of the myriad feelings that come with being a mother.

I Hate Being a Mom and I’m Ashamed

From the moment a woman announces her pregnancy, she often receives an outpouring of congratulations, well-wishes, and a barrage of advice on the joys of motherhood. Society, with its age-old narratives, has long held the belief that motherhood is the ultimate fulfillment of a woman’s existence. It’s painted as a rite of passage, a natural progression that every woman should not only aspire to but also cherish with all her heart.

However, what happens when the reality doesn’t match the dream? I once knew a young mother who’d meticulously prepared for children: She read all the books, joined all the “right” groups on social media, researched how to eat, sleep, and drink for the optimum health of her unborn child. She desperately wanted to do be the best possible mother she could be. But later, after the birth, she found herself constantly shrouded in waves of anxiety.

I’m not talking post-partum depression, here. We’re talking about the sheer overwhelm of responsibility that comes from creating another human being, and then watching that part of you go out into the world. What happens when the sleepless nights, endless responsibilities, and the loss of personal identity start to weigh on your shoulders? The internal struggle begins. A nagging voice whispers, “Did I make a mistake?” Then, this voice is quickly shushed by the louder voices of societal expectations and the fear of being seen as an anomaly. After all, how can a woman not revel in the role that she was “born” to play?

This internal turmoil often leads to a profound sense of isolation. The fear of judgment is real. Admitting to these feelings can lead to raised eyebrows, hushed conversations, and even outright criticism. “How can she not love being a mother?” “She must be ungrateful.” “Maybe she’s just not cut out for it.” These are just a few of the many judgments a woman might face, pushing her further into the shadows of shame and silence.

The inability to openly discuss these feelings only exacerbates the sense of loneliness and isolation. In a world where curated social media posts show motherhood as a series of picture-perfect moments, admitting to feelings of regret feels like an act of rebellion, one that comes with its own set of consequences. But by not addressing this shame, we perpetuate a cycle of silence, leaving countless mothers feeling trapped in their own minds, yearning for understanding and validation.

I Hate Being a Mom & I’m Angry

While filled with moments of joy and tenderness, motherhood is also punctuated by a series of daily challenges that can test the patience and resilience of even the most stoic. From sleep deprivation to managing tantrums, from juggling work and home responsibilities to dealing with external pressures, the demands are endless. Over time, these daily frustrations can accumulate, leading to feelings of anger. It’s an anger that sometimes simmers just below the surface, waiting for a trigger to bring it to a boil.

But it’s not just the daily grind that can lead to resentment. For many mothers, it’s the haunting realization of the opportunities forgone, the dreams deferred, and the personal freedoms relinquished. The world outside continues to move at its own pace, while a mother might feel like she’s watching from the sidelines, her own aspirations taking a backseat to the needs of her family. This loss of personal identity, where a woman’s worth is often solely equated with her role as a mother, can be a bitter pill to swallow.

Compounding these feelings of anger and resentment is the ever-present guilt. The narrative around motherhood is one of reverence and gratitude. It’s often touted as a blessing, a “divine” gift that should be cherished. So, when a mother feels anything but gratitude, the guilt can be overwhelming. “Why do I hate being a mom?” “Am I a bad person for feeling this way?” These are questions that plague the minds of many, adding another layer of emotional turmoil to an already complex web of feelings.

The juxtaposition of the societal ideal of the ever-loving, selfless mother against the very real and human emotions of anger and resentment creates a dichotomy that many women find hard to reconcile. It’s a silent battle, one that’s often fought behind closed doors, away from the prying eyes of judgment. But by acknowledging these feelings and understanding their roots, we can begin to pave the way for a more authentic and compassionate conversation around the complexities of motherhood.

Powerlessness and Loss of Control

I realize the sheer courage it must take to let the words escape from your mouth – “I hate being a mom.” What I know for sure is, it isn’t a reflection of a lack of love for the child but rather a profound feeling of powerlessness. The immense responsibility of nurturing a life can sometimes feel like an insurmountable mountain. And that can lead to a sensation of entrapment in an unending cycle.

This feeling is further intensified by the loss of personal autonomy. As a mother, your life often becomes a series of decisions made in the best interest of your child, sidelining your own desires and needs. The constant prioritization of the child’s well-being over your own can erode the sense of self, leading to a feeling of being lost in the enormity of the role of being a mom.

Compounding this sense of powerlessness is the expectation of the “perfect” mother. Everywhere you look, from media portrayals to casual conversations, there’s an implicit standard set for mothers. This pressure, coupled with the internalized belief that a woman’s value is intrinsically linked to her success as a mother, can be suffocating. When your internal narrative becomes, “I hate being a mom,” it’s not a rejection of your child but a desperate plea for understanding and a longing to reclaim your sense of self and control.

To Be or Not to Be: Will I Hate Being a Mom?

Navigating the maze of expectations, we as women often find ourselves hearing a haunting voice asking: “Will I hate being a mom?” So, what of those of us who choose not to tread the path of motherhood at all? Society, with its deeply ingrained beliefs, often assumes that we all harbor an innate desire for motherhood, viewing it as the ultimate fulfillment of our womanhood.

Yet, the reality is far more nuanced. I remember getting a birthday call from my older brother when I turned 26. “Happy Birthday, sis. So when are you going to start thinking about getting married and having kids?” Me: “Yeah, I don’t know. Not really thinking about that”, I laughed uncomfortably. Then, he dropped the ultimate threat, (or what felt like a threat at the time), “You know, you’re not getting any younger.” Wow. I had just turned 26. I was quite literally having the time of my life!

On the other hand, my best friend, who’d married at 21, was already covered in spit-up and thankful for the days when she could grab a shower or eat a hot meal. What I knew, will all certainty, was that I surely didn’t want HER life. But as a woman who opted out of motherhood, what I know is this – women who consciously decide not to have children also face a barrage of judgment and, at times, pity. We’re frequently met with incredulous questions, veiled criticisms, or sympathetic looks, as if our choice signifies a missing piece or an unfulfilled life. The underlying message is clear: our worth and completeness are tied to our role of “mother.”

This external pressure often gives rise to an internal conflict. Even if a woman feels confident in her decision to remain childless, the societal narrative can plant seeds of doubt. “Am I missing out?” “Will I regret this?” And for those who do become mothers but find themselves whispering, “I hate being a mom,” the conflict intensifies. They grapple with feelings of inadequacy, wondering if they’ve somehow failed in the very role society told them they were destined to occupy. This dilemma underscores the need for a broader, more inclusive conversation about the diverse experiences and choices of women when it comes to motherhood.

Despising the Role but Loving the Child

One of the most profound and perplexing sentiments a mother can experience is to hate motherhood while simultaneously feeling an overwhelming love for her child. This paradox, though not something we talk about, is a reality for many. And I know why we’re not talking. When my friend, the young mother I spoke about earlier, found her voice, and uttered the words, “I hate being a mom,” she was met with side glances, hushed whispers, and even outright criticism. Fortunately, there were also people who acknowledged her courage. But not everyone experiences the latter.

At the heart of this paradox is the clear distinction between the role of a mother and the love for one’s child. The role, with its endless responsibilities, constant demands, and personal sacrifices, can be draining and, at times, suffocating. It’s a role that demands constant giving, often at the expense of your own well-being. Yet, separate from this role is the pure, unadulterated love a mother feels for her child—a love that is fierce, protective, and boundless.

This dichotomy can lead to feelings of guilt and confusion. How can you despise the challenges and constraints of motherhood, yet cherish every moment with your child? It’s a tug-of-war between expectations and emotions, between the external and the internal.

To illustrate, consider the story of Maya. Every night, as she battles to get her toddler to sleep, she feels a mix of frustration and exhaustion. The endless cycle of feeding, changing, and soothing feels like a never-ending marathon. In those moments, she thinks, “I hate being a mom.” Yet, when her child finally drifts off to sleep, and she watches his peaceful face, her heart swells with love and tenderness. It’s a love so profound that it eclipses the challenges of the day.

Maya’s story, and countless others like hers, underscores the complexity of motherhood. It’s a journey of contrasts—of loving deeply yet feeling overwhelmed, of cherishing moments yet yearning for freedom. Recognizing and acknowledging this paradox is the first step towards understanding the multifaceted nature of motherhood and offering support to those navigating its complex paths.

Coping and Finding Support

In the midst of the emotional whirlwind that often accompanies thoughts of hating motherhood, finding avenues for support and coping becomes pivotal. While these feelings are valid and more common than many of us realize, they also signal a need for understanding, self-care, and external support.

  1. Therapy and Counseling: One of the most effective ways to navigate these complex emotions is through professional therapy or counseling. A trained therapist can offer a safe space to express feelings, provide coping strategies, and help in understanding the root causes of these emotions. They can also offer tools to manage guilt, resentment, and other associated feelings.
  2. Support Groups and Communities: There’s immense power in shared experiences. Joining support groups or communities of mothers who resonate with the sentiment can be therapeutic. These groups offer a judgment-free zone where mothers can share their stories, offer advice, and find solace in the fact that you are not alone. (By the way, you’re not alone – 1500 people Google the phrase, “I hate being a mom” every month.)
  3. Self-Care and Setting Boundaries: While motherhood often demands selflessness, it’s crucial for mothers to prioritize self-care. This could be in the form of regular breaks, pursuing hobbies, or simply setting aside “me time.” Setting boundaries, both with children and others, can also help in reclaiming some sense of self and autonomy.
  4. Open Communication: Bottling up feelings can lead to increased stress and resentment. It’s essential for mothers to have open communication with their partners, family, and friends. Sharing feelings, seeking help when overwhelmed, and setting expectations can alleviate some of the pressures of motherhood.

In conclusion, while the sentiment of hating being a mother is laden with complex emotions, it’s essential to remember that seeking support is both a sign of strength and a step towards holistic well-being. By addressing these feelings head-on and seeking the right avenues for support, mothers can find a balance that honors both their individuality and their role as caregivers.

Resources and Further Reading

For those who wish to delve deeper into the challenges of motherhood and find support, the following resources offer valuable insights and guidance:


  1. Mom Struggles: A Mom’s Guide to Hope through the Challenges of Motherhood by Gather Moms and Jenny Worsham. This book delves into the tears of triumph and struggle that come with motherhood. It offers practical help and encouragement for some of the most challenging issues moms face. It works for both personal study and group discussions.
  2. Screaming on the Inside: The Challenges of American Motherhood by Jessica Grose. This book provides science-backed insights on how to navigate the challenging journey of motherhood in the American context.
  3. The School for Good Mothers. Featured in a list by The New York Public Library, this book is among those that start new conversations about motherhood.

Support Group:

  1. Gather Moms: A community that offers resources, studies, and support groups for mothers. Their website, gathermoms.com, provides more information and ways to connect with other moms.

While specific helplines for struggling mothers vary by region, it’s essential to reach out to local mental health organizations or counseling centers. They often have dedicated lines or resources for parents in distress.

Remember, if you or someone you know is struggling with motherhood, seeking help is a sign of strength. There’s a vast community out there ready to offer support, understanding, and guidance.

Cultivating Compassion and Empathy for Mothers Who Realize Too Late

The realization of not wanting to be a mom can be a jarring and painful epiphany, especially when it dawns after the irreversible step of becoming one. For those on the outside looking in, it’s crucial to approach such women with deep compassion and empathy. Here’s how:

  1. Avoid Judgment: First and foremost, resist the urge to judge. Every individual’s experience with motherhood is unique, and what might be a joy for one can be a challenge for another. Understand that these feelings don’t reflect a lack of love for the child but rather the overwhelming weight of the role itself.
  2. Listen Actively: Sometimes, all a struggling mother needs is a listening ear. Allow her to express her feelings without interruption or unsolicited advice. Validate her emotions and let her know that it’s okay to feel the way she does.
  3. Educate and Inform: Many societal judgments stem from ignorance. By educating ourselves and others about the complexities of motherhood, we can foster a more understanding and supportive environment. Share articles, stories, and research that shed light on the diverse experiences of mothers.
  4. Offer Support: Whether it’s helping with childcare, providing resources, or simply being there as a shoulder to lean on, offer tangible support. Small gestures can make a significant difference in alleviating the pressures of motherhood.
  5. Encourage Professional Help: If a mother’s feelings of resentment and regret are affecting her well-being, encourage her to seek professional help. Therapy and counseling can provide coping mechanisms and a safe space to navigate these emotions.
  6. Refrain from Platitudes: Avoid saying things like “It’ll get better with time” or “All mothers feel this way.” While well-intentioned, such statements can minimize the mother’s feelings and experiences.
  7. Promote a Broader Conversation: Advocate for a more inclusive dialogue about motherhood in society. By acknowledging and discussing the challenges, we can break the taboo surrounding negative feelings associated with motherhood.

In essence, the journey of motherhood is full of highs and lows, and for some, the lows can be overwhelming. By approaching mothers who resonate with the sentiment “I hate being a mom” with compassion and empathy, we can create a more supportive and understanding community for all.


Motherhood, in all its complexity, is a journey that elicits a spectrum of emotions. For some, while the sentiment “I hate being a mom” might surface amidst the challenges, and it’s vital to acknowledge that such feelings are valid. Every mother’s experience is unique, and it’s perfectly okay to have conflicting emotions about this profound role.

It’s essential to remember that a woman’s worth extends far beyond her role as a mother. While motherhood is a significant aspect of many women’s lives, it is just one facet of their multifaceted identities. A woman’s value is not, and should never be, solely defined by her maternal status.

As a society, it’s time for us to broaden our understanding and embrace the diverse experiences of motherhood. Instead of perpetuating a singular narrative, let’s recognize and validate the myriad feelings and challenges women face. Let’s champion a culture of empathy, support, and open dialogue, ensuring that every woman feels seen, heard, and valued, regardless of her personal journey with motherhood.

In closing, let’s remember that by fostering understanding and offering support, we can create a world where every woman feels empowered to share her truth, no matter how complex or contradictory it might seem – whether we choose the path of motherhood, or not.